In an attempt to communicate my intentions for this series, let me chop up the mind of Paul, maybe the greatest human theologian, from various points in time in his life.
I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate.
But by the grace of God I am what I am.
I don’t mean to say that I have already reached perfection. But I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me. No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.
This roughly captures a three-fold process for how I’ve often done my theology:
- I don’t get it… I have questions.
- I get it….I think I’ve arrived
- I’m humbled… I’m an idiot, I can’t tame the Bible or life in general with whatever system I’ve adopted, and I need to keep my eyes on Jesus.
…and repeat, for the past 9 years.
If this was my own personal journey, which never affected anyone else, everything would be fine. We’re all on a journey, right? Yes, but beliefs affect behavior. These steps correlate to the ones above:
- I have questions about what to believe, so you should probably have these questions too. So let me impose them upon you.
- Hallelujah, I’ve found the reason/doctrine/theology behind it all! If only we all knew about this. So let me impose this upon you.
- I’m an idiot. I don’t know anything. When will I stop looking for formulaic answers? Come to think of it, most people do that. So let me… no… Jesus help me.
I’ve been around the theological block in a relatively short amount of time. I’ve been informed by people, churches, books, blogs, and experience. I call this a “progression,” because even though there have been some highs and lows already, I’m better off for the journey.
I’ll highlight maybe 7-8 points in the journey so far and reflect why I came to the conclusions I did, how they affected me, how they affected those around me, and the good I’ve taken with me.
Buckle up :)


ryanspooner
November 16, 2011 at 12:01 pm
I will most certainly be following along. This is a great start.